Hiding.

Inspired by Plain + Small, a blog run by a friend of mine, Sarah Wood. Check out her and her husband’s journey of adoption and find out how you can help!

Often in life, we hide. We hide in many different ways, from different things. We may hide by watching TV shows, or by being on the computer all the time. Maybe we are hiding from ourselves, from our life, or from someone we live with. Maybe we’re hiding from God, from the life we’re called to, and we’re hiding because we’re afraid.

I just had what you might call an epiphany when reading this blog post from Plain + Small. I realized that I constantly hide. I’m so afraid of messing up, of being bad at something, of exposing a weakness, of what other people might think if I did that thing, that I’d rather let my strengths go uncovered, leave them hidden, than risk those things. It’s fear. I care far too much what others think of me. I care far too much about my own image, rather than projecting the image of Christ. I care far too much about embarrassing myself, when most times I have absolutely nothing to be embarrassed about.

But Joshua 1:9 tells us:

“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”

God is with me, and He is not embarrassed by me. He is not ashamed of me. He is not trying to hide me from the world for fear that I might make Him look bad. He’s sending me forth, and I keep telling him no through my actions. He’s given me desires and cares and heartache for a reason. He puts things on my heart for reasons that may be beyond my comprehension, but for a reason He knows. And I tell Him no, by hiding in episode after episode of meaningless tv shows, or by seeing opportunities and passing them up. And it’s hard to get out of that mindset that “but I can’t” mentality. It’s hard.

But it’s not impossible. Because all things are possible through Christ.